Ummm, i dunno. life is weird right now. Its not great. But it could be much much worse. and for that i am very greatful. Made up with some old friends, starting over with the b/f. money sucks... i am so sick of all this cold, especially since theres no snow.

I will be in michigan the 21st to the 28th.... we should chill!

welll, i thought i should update on my life.

My mommy was in the hospital the past couple days... mild heart attack. Its weird, u never think it could happen to you or someone you love. Shes better now, its just scary to think that if she hadn't been able to call me, who knows what would have happened. like what if i was in michigan? its scary... i love her.

Then theres personal issues with me, like huge issues. but Tai has been great. i am so glad i have him to help me out.

I finally got in touch with some long lost cousins, which makes me pretty much ecstatic! ANND next weekend halloween party! and i bought a cute playboy referee costume. sexy sexy!

thats all. i love you kids!

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Wow, this time of year all i want to listen to is Death Cab and Brighteyes.

They are so depressing, but so beautiful...

I was evaluating my relationship with tai and thought to myself, if i knew that i was going to have such an incredible boyfriend now, i would not have wasted like 2 years of my life whining about something i couldn't have. I wish i would have listened when people said there was something better for me.

so i looked at my tracker and surprisingly a lot of people look at my site still. just no one comments...

But i will give you stuff to look at cuz poor xanga needs it.

This is effing hobbs. I hate him

We had a blackout from like 8 at night till 3 in the morning, which means

i didn't get to sleep till 3 because i didnt have a fan...

Then it was munchkins b-day! shes 4 now and we all went to chuck e cheeses

I love my baby sister

YAY! happy birthday!

hehe, chloe and sam playing with bubbles

Tai and i brought abbi to a pumpkin patch

mmm, i heart my babe

i love that he loves my family

him crying about the pumpkin guts

his pumpkin was cool cuz he used a stencil... and mine was awesome, but

some might say it was a little racist... but i swear it was soo unintentional.

So i will be making a new one this weekend. haha

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 Today as I dressed in my fancy business clothes, grabbed my briefcase, talked to the guy that i am in a serious relationship with about our work schedules and when we could see eachother next, drove thru starbucks, and unlocked the office i realized, in this moment, i have become an adult.

Its weird... opportunities come flying at me. I take them, but each one makes me grow up a little more. Past relationships/friendships seem fake and distant, whenever i start having fun i feel like i am slacking and should be doing something more productive. Part of me wants to be a kid for a little bit longer. be in college, party every weekend, work at the mall. But part of me likes being able to say oh i have 3 clients today, and sure i would love to go shopping and blow money because i can, and i really enjoy being in a relationship with someone i could see myself with 10 years from now...

god its scary bein this way at 19. i still am a crazy girl tho ya know? i haven't changed, just, added some responsibilites. and i guess thats not so bad now is it?

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So, i have a myspace... but i still love xanga. Its more understanding.

in other news. i love my job(s) and all the money that i make. my b/f treats me like a princess and is amazing to me and i am falling hard for him.

I friggen love autumn. and am ready for snow! I am so excited i will have a guy for the holidays this year. oooo presents!

well, i doubt anyone even reads xanga anymore. but i dunno, thought i would write anyways.

xoxo

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse of curves
So with the combination of my gift with one liners
And my way
My way with words
It seems I'm too hip to keep tight lipped
And you're on the gossip team
You're making something out of nothing
And jealousy's the cousin, the cousin of greed
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes